I’ve been at college for a little under a month. What a change it has been. It’s like having two different lives. There’s the new life, the new friends, the new living space, and new classes. Then there is Magnolia. Another routine, different friends, and a different living space.
In this transition, I’ve had a lot of down time. This has included a whole lot of Law and Order… but it’s also been a time that I feel like God has really taught me a lot about Himself.
So here is the top 3 things God has been revealing to me about himself:
#1. God is sovereign.
So many times I feel like screaming when I hear this. When I’m going through a hard time, people will say, “Everything is going to be okay, God has got this under control.”
I don’t know about you, but when I hear this, I want to punch that person in the face.
I hate it so much because I’m in the situation because God allowed it.
God was in control and He still let it happen.
Confession: Sometimes I hold God’s sovereignty against Him.
This past weekend my mom told me something that changed my perspective on this. She basically said we have a tendency to trust God to fix our problems, or “have faith” that He won’t allow something in our lives. Then we are terribly disappointed when He doesn’t fix the problem or allows the thing we were afraid of.
God allows unfortunate circumstances in our lives for so many different reasons. Short-term and long-term. Every experience–good and bad–has a greater heavenly purpose. God is not there to fix my problems. He’s there to walk with me through them. I cannot trust God that He won’t put me in another car accident. He most definitely can and will. I have to trust that whether or not that happens… He will continue to be 100% good and be faithful in my storms.
Ephesians 3:20 Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us,
#2. God isn’t into keeping us comfortable.
If we stay in the same spot our whole lives, we miss out on so much that God has to offer. We miss out on relationships, experiences, pain, and joy. We stay in our bubbles and put up walls so we can’t hurt, but if we don’t hurt then we can’t experience joy.
It’s been hard stepping out my bubble; its super safe and comfy there. I really love it if I’m being completely honest.
However, when I gave my life to Jesus, He gave me more than any bubble of comfort ever could. He gave me eternal life and He gave me purpose.
Matthew 28:19-20 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
#3. God knows that sometimes letting go is harder said than done.
The other night I attended this college group called Crosstalk, and have been attending since I’ve been in San Marcos. They were having the worship portion of the songs, and the singer stopped for a moment of prayer. He asked that we let go of anything holding us down in our relationship with Him. I was almost in tears. I sat there praying, “God it’s not that easy. It’s so hard. There is so much.” I’ll be struggling and sit down and be like, “Okay, God it’s all yours.” Yet, an hour goes by and I’m praying the prayer again.
I think God understands that. God knows we are going to have struggles. We might struggle with them for years. It’s okay to have the daily process of constantly giving it to Him. God doesn’t expect us to heal in a day.
- He knows we’re tired.
- He knows we’re sad.
- He knows we feel like we’re failing at everything in our life.
We forget that He’s on our side. I find myself relieved when He reminds me. I feel His encouragement all the time.
- Sometimes it’s in the form a small whisper, in my heart, reminding me to breathe.
- Sometimes it’s a friend reminding me that it’s okay to cry.
- Sometimes it’s just seeing a little glimpse of the bigger picture in what God is doing.
I have to remember that even when I feel like the size of a pea, and I’m progressing through life at the speed of a sloth… God is right there next to me. He’s rooting for me.
He let go of His son so that we could let go of our problems and rest in grace and mercy.
Psalm 61:2 When my heart is overwhelmed lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
I have found through all the traumas and life changes God has placed on me the last few months that even in my darkest moments, I can still feel His presence with me. When I’m lonely, He fills that void. When I’m sad, he lets me cry on His shoulders, and when I have victories, He cheers right along with me.
Life has been so overwhelming yet, God stands strong beside me and helps me through it. I wouldn’t take anything back in my life. Not the sunshine and certainly not the storms. God has used them to make me the person I am today.
In your sunshine and in your storms God has done the same for you. Let’s embrace it.